*sigh*

I need help.

I am the worlds worst when it comes to cleaning. And I know I have mentioned it before on my blog, but I seriously need help.
I can clean.
I was once paid to clean.
BUT I get soooo discouraged when things are not going my way...
for example. I hate my apartment.
To me, there is no where to put anything. No real proper storage. I feel cramped and piled on top of myself.
I have things piled in one part of my livingroom WAITING for me to have a garage sale...I have a huge pile of clothes sitting under my bar WAITING for me to wash them, but I have to get caught up on our everyday stuff, that I never get around to it....I hate our washing machine (though I am grateful I have one) because it is a small one, that holds only half a load.
I have piles of coupons for me to organize, I know I can save tons of money if I use them, I have saved almost 80% of my total using coupons, but because I don't have what I feel is the necessary items to organize them, I don't want to do it....I have piles of craft projects some started and forgotten, some waiting and some just imagined.....I have a desk that looks like a black hole, gobbling up anything in it's way.....
I have cleaned, organized and became anal retentive over these things, but it keeps coming back because I get discouraged at the way others don't respect the hard work I have done and can't pick up after themselves.
I know this is just an excuse, but it is one that I can't get over.....

Help me internet friends, how do you stay at home moms do it, how do you have to drive and desire to keep trucking even though piles and messes continue to happen. save me!

It's a shocker.

Warning, what you are about to read, might shock you….

I am working out! YAY! I am on my way to a healthier me.

Today as I was swimming laps in the pool, I started talking with a woman who was a physical therapist and a masseuse as well. She was explaining to me what oral chelation is.
Picture this, you eat a food that were not grown in organic conditions, and in the environment and or processing plant it was made, nasty toxins invaded it, well then you eat these toxins, and they float about your body. THEN…you get stressed, and the area in your body where you “carry” your stress, it starts tensing up. It is at this spot, where the toxins decide to settle. That is what a knot is, a bunch of built up toxins.
With Chelation Therapy (which used to be given by way of IV, now it can come in a pill form) you are able to release the nastiest of toxins, including the heavier lead.
Oral EDTA chelation doesn’t get rid of the toxins at the spot it lands (that is what a massage does…and if you do get a lot of toxins out with massage, you need to drink plenty of water!)
it gets rid of the toxins in your blood stream, this also frees up the arteries so that blood flow is faster, and healthier.

I am so in the market to feel good in my skin, I am going to check this out.

Over listening

This is the conversation at the gas station....

Me: mmm icecream sounds good.
Few seconds later
Me: will you go in and get me a drumstick jason?
Ten minutes
This is what I get.....I just wanted a drumstick icecream.

How to cheer up an old friend step one

Take him to a pool hall dive....he can take his frustrations out on the balls.

Why I feel defeated...

I wake up and find this on my recently swept and mopped bathroom floor.
Do the men and kids in your life do this to you too? And if so do you get defeated too? Or are you like Julie (jason's sister) and clean it without care to who did it....but just because it is just something that has to be done ....
Did I mention that when I feel defeated I either whine complain and cry about it.....or ignore ALL messes until I get over it...or fight with jason about it(he lived with Julie for many years and is used to no whining approach to cleaning..... I on the other hand am used to you mess it you clean it method....a foreign concept to the residence in my apartment.)